“Mama, do we all of a sudden one day stop playing with toys when we are grown-ups?”, asked my five year old, who just bought a boy-doll from American-girl doll, where we’d gone to treat my 9 year old for her birthday.
“Well, not really.. “, I responded instantly, not thinking, when he interrupted with his eyes becoming bigger, “what do you mean Mama, you still play with toys?”, “Well no, I didn’t mean so, but you know we could, like how I do with you still, right?” .. “So Mama, can you please keep this boy doll with you even after I’m a big boy, a grownup and I’m married.. And, and Mama, so that my kids can play with it too?”
I smiled and assured him that I won’t give any of his toys away, unless he’d like for me to. But he continued, “Mama, but how will I get married though? Just to kiss someone and I’ll be married Mama?”, he asked with just as much innocence on his face, just as his words, while quickly picking up my cellphone beside me on the kitchen-counter, climbing up the bar stool on to the island, getting himself comfortable at a height to be able to continue chatting with his mama eye to eye, he thankfully got distracted from the current topic spontaneously..
“So Mama, grownups also take phones to work you see.. Why don’t they allow kids to take them to school Mama?”
As I was just about to answer, he quickly added, “Mama I know why Mama, so that the kids don’t get concentrated, right?”.. “Sorry bubba, so that they don’t get what you said my baby?”, I asked, “CONCENTRATED” he said aloud.
“Oh, yes yes, right baby” & I barely could say that, trying to think of something else funny (not as much as the current situation though) to share with him , to coverup my laughter I wasn’t able to hold, so that he wouldn’t feel I laughed at what he’d just said, or the “process of marriage” as perceived by him, or how “excruciating” meant “decorating the Christmas tree” or to think of last year, when I wrote a similar note about him, when he explained to me that “too embarrassing” meant “too hard to open the bottle of honey” & I hold back my happy tears, thinking how precious my children are to me, these little moments along with so many more .. and their innocence..
I wish I could freeze this childhood right here to enjoy and live my life forever simply, as it is..
But if not, I’m sure this love I have for my babies and this fathomless Mamahood would stay frozen forever just this way, no matter how warm it is..
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